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me and my best friend, we sure got a good chemistry. i miss you my dear... c u soon okay. love you :)
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did i just do that???
this morning was supposed to be my third class with the lecturer. but i don't wanna continue the class anymore. the reasons:
1. i just wanna ease my mind here at home...i don't wanna think about study. this is just not the place for me to sit and read my text books.
2. i don't like the way the lecturer 'teach' me. i just can't cope with it (maybe it's my problem, fine...but i just don't like his way).
that's why!!! so what did i do? i told him not to come, and i said i'll meet him with my parents to discuss this matter. i don't care what he'll think bout me (well, i do care a bit actually :p), i just wanna quit. that's all...and i'll get what i want, no matter what!!! but i hate myself for doing this, taking people's time...and wasting it...but i should say what i wanna say, and i should do what i wanna do, rite??!!!!
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am i destined to.....????
I'm home right now. i just wanna get away from my 'study place' to clear my mind from all the tension i got there...
today i started a private tuition with a lecturer from a private college. guess what i got from the lesson just now? i can't stop thinking bout my future now. am i really going to be a doc? am i destined to be a doc? do i have the passion? now i'm thinking of changing profession. i feel like i can't be a doc... it's just not right for me... i don't have the quality of a doc. am i crazy or what doing something i don't enjoy, and i'll be stuck with it for the rest of my life?
i don't know how to say this to my parents... with everybody expecting me to be a doc in a few more years. i just can't do it now... i don't know what to do. i'm stuck between my own interest and my parents' hope, and the scholarship whatever..... god help me!!!
oh dear, what am i suppose to do???
